forever

at first you can't see where you are it's pitch black and you don't know what's going on until you realize that your eyes are closed so you try to wrench them open but nothing works until you finally focus with all your might and as they crack open the light filters through blinding you with supreme beauty that you have never seen before and you look around but still cannot see anything because of the glorious white light that seems to emanate from a single source so you decide to reach out and go for the source of the light that is so intense and blinding but you can't quite reach it for whenever you reach out towards it it gets farther away from you and only then do you realize that your other senses have failed too with your throat tightening up and your palms becoming sweaty coupled with butterflies welling up deep inside you with your heart pounding out of your chest and you can hear it inside your ears with every heavy step you take all you can hear is the throbbing of your heart and the deafening roar of the silence still unable to see anything finally getting closer to the blinding light and then you fall the ground suddenly giving way beneath your feet causing your body to plummet into the darkness again uncertainty about where you will land coursing through your body and fear begins to take its stranglehold upon your soul as you plummet further and further away from the light until you can barely see it anymore and all the thoughts in your head are jumbled into useless mush as you try to figure out what is going on and how you can stop it but then you realize that your body is starting to separate from your mind the numbness of your flesh becoming a minor detail in your life as you continue to fall alone and deserted full of despair and chaos surrounded by nothing your emotions having left you as well incapacitating your ability to think and rationalize and the pressure of disaster just presses in on you harder and harder until your feeble mind is ready to crack and then...you let go. you stop caring about what could happen or what might happen and begin to focus on the moment. feeling slowly starts to return to your body. you begin to realize that there is something at the bottom for you, something that will stop you from falling. your throat loosens, the butterflies flutter away, and your heart calms itself. your hearing slowly returns as your heart resumes its regularity. your muscles relax as you fully embrace the fall, despite not know where it will take you. but you realize you still cannot see. you call out into the uncertain darkness, empty words drifting off into silence. again you make sure your eyes are open. finally, as you look down, there is a small speck of light. you expect to hurtle towards it, but you softly float downwards. then you realize it is gliding up to meet you. slowly, surely, you meet up with the destiny in the bright light, the one person you always knew you could count on to be there for you. they catch you from your fall and you stare into the eyes of forever.

that's basically what love feels like.