no particular order; subject to addition and/or deletion
(1) a thunderous tide
(2) helicopter rotors
(3) bubble wrap popping
(4) ticket scanning at a sporting event
(5) squealing tires
(6) a banjo
(7) forceful waterfall
(8) drizzle of mist
(9) drenching downpour
(10) what my heart says
(11) silence
(12) another's thoughts
(13) a single water drop
(14) a heart beat
(15) the wind
(16) an orchestra/a symphony
(17) breath
(18) falling snow
(19) her whispering/breathing into my ear
(20) her eyes
(21) her heart
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
Parents
Who knew such a simple word could evoke such emotion? They are only two people in a world of 6 billion. They have such...power. They can control every aspect of your life willingly and create a hell on earth. Much of the time, that's exactly how it feels to you. Whenever you want to do something, they don't want you to. When you start growing up and maturing, they don't want you to. Everything they do is in perfect contrast to what and who you are. You recede into yourself, drawing up hate for them, despise their existence. Everything they do to you is unfair and out of spite for how they were raised. Oh yeah, that never ending "you don't know how good you have it" phrase and story gets old relatively quickly, meaning after the very first time you hear it. You can't wait to leave, you're itching to get off to college. Then you'll be free from their tyranny. But wait, it gets better: you still can't escape their grasp. One way or another, they still get you to do what they want. Sure, you have your free time to party and go crazy, get out of control. But ultimately, you have to get the grades and impress them enough so that you can stay in school. And finally, there is that undeniable feeling, that certainty that nothing you can ever do will be good enough for them. You'll never make them proud to be your parents. You'll always be viewed as a failure in their eyes because you couldn't live up to their expectations. And it is at this point that you just stop caring. You flip them the bird and give them a big eff you in your mind. You swear that one day, when you have kids of your own, you'll be the opposite. You'll give them everything that you never were able to have, everything that you couldn't have because of the dictators that are your parents.
But then it happens.
You are put in their place. You have kids of your own. Then you finally begin to understand. There was a rhyme and reason to the madness that your parents had in raising you. You come to realize you were always loved. And it turns out that there was next to nothing you could do to make your parents NOT proud of you. You recall how they didn't always express their love for you. But then you quickly realize that it was a fallacy. It wasn't that they didn't know how to express their love for you; it was that you didn't know how they expressed their love for you. Every day they loved you. Everything they did was out of that love for you. And it's true, you will never fully understand why. Even as you are going through it, you will never be able to comprehend why they are doing what they are doing, why they are acting how they are acting. But as I stated earlier, you become them by having your own kids. Then, it hits you, an epiphany of glorioius proportions. The love between parents and children, once seeminly so cryptic, has now become so simplistic. And not just out in the open, but beautiful as well. The intricate connection between parents and offspring can never be fully understood. It has the intangibles, in addition to love, that make it impossible to comprehend. Not until are you gifted with a family of your own will you understand why the decisions were made, as well as how difficult some of them actually were.
I emplore you: love your parents with all your heart. You may not understand anything about the relationship you share with them, but that is a small matter. The bond you share is inseparable, no matter how hard you may try to shake it, or how far away you may try and grow from it. Give them a call for no reason. Thank them for all they have done for you. Thank them for all that they will do for you. The first gift you are ever given by your parents is your name, the identity you shall have in this world. But the most important gifts given unto you were your life and their love. Without these, we are nothing. Without our parents, we are nobodies. So please, do not wait to thank them before it is too late. No matter what the day brings, they will always love you in the end. And no one can ask for more than that.
But then it happens.
You are put in their place. You have kids of your own. Then you finally begin to understand. There was a rhyme and reason to the madness that your parents had in raising you. You come to realize you were always loved. And it turns out that there was next to nothing you could do to make your parents NOT proud of you. You recall how they didn't always express their love for you. But then you quickly realize that it was a fallacy. It wasn't that they didn't know how to express their love for you; it was that you didn't know how they expressed their love for you. Every day they loved you. Everything they did was out of that love for you. And it's true, you will never fully understand why. Even as you are going through it, you will never be able to comprehend why they are doing what they are doing, why they are acting how they are acting. But as I stated earlier, you become them by having your own kids. Then, it hits you, an epiphany of glorioius proportions. The love between parents and children, once seeminly so cryptic, has now become so simplistic. And not just out in the open, but beautiful as well. The intricate connection between parents and offspring can never be fully understood. It has the intangibles, in addition to love, that make it impossible to comprehend. Not until are you gifted with a family of your own will you understand why the decisions were made, as well as how difficult some of them actually were.
I emplore you: love your parents with all your heart. You may not understand anything about the relationship you share with them, but that is a small matter. The bond you share is inseparable, no matter how hard you may try to shake it, or how far away you may try and grow from it. Give them a call for no reason. Thank them for all they have done for you. Thank them for all that they will do for you. The first gift you are ever given by your parents is your name, the identity you shall have in this world. But the most important gifts given unto you were your life and their love. Without these, we are nothing. Without our parents, we are nobodies. So please, do not wait to thank them before it is too late. No matter what the day brings, they will always love you in the end. And no one can ask for more than that.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
The Purpose of Life
It's quite simple actually. I was fortunate enough to discover the purpose of life for me at a young age. While the details may not be the same for everyone, its essence is pure and true. The purpose of life is to be just who you are, the way you are, the best you can. Everyone does this in their own special way. For me, it's laughter. I pride myself in creating happiness in others, in being the shining moment of their day. It's not all about me; it's completely about others. I was placed on earth to be a servant to everyone, to live out my days eliciting joy to all those without, those unfortunate individuals who need a boost to smile.
Now I fully understand that everyone has their own talents: leaders, athletes, scholars, politicians. Everyone has to be different, that's just the way things are. Sameness will not solve problems and will not make the world go round. Only by embracing our differences shall we truly understand our oneness; only then shall we be able to comprehend the power we share with each other. So let's just talk it out, hug it out, and come to realize the understanding we already share with one another. In this moment will we discover how perfect each one of us actually is. Mind you, we are not flawless; however, perfection is attainable as the perfect balance between the good and bad qualities of one's self, whereby the good qualities vastly outweigh the bad.
In embracing ourselves and one another, the GOAL of life is found. Another way of saying this is that THEY are found. Simply put, you fall in love; you embrace every aspect of something other than yourself. This other person becomes your lifeblood; you become inseparable, clinging to each other. Your bonds tie deeply, intricately weaving heart and soul to the other, until that point is reached where you are no more. A new individual is formed from two; a union blossoms into the fragrant fruit of a family.
As enlightening as I have been, there is one thing I still have not discovered. How does one KNOW when they have found the other? That, my friends, shall never be answered. To know that answer is to take away the greatest mystery of life, the part that makes it an adventure. And one of the most frustrating things is that you can think you have found it, only to later discover that you could not have been more wrong. Breaking the heart is a frightening matter and can lead to anyone shutting themselves off from the world. But fear not, there is much hope; for that person who braves scale that wall and tear it down from the inside out, they are the one, the one that shall be with you for all time, until the end of days. Take their hand when they take you by the heart...love will surely follow.
Now I fully understand that everyone has their own talents: leaders, athletes, scholars, politicians. Everyone has to be different, that's just the way things are. Sameness will not solve problems and will not make the world go round. Only by embracing our differences shall we truly understand our oneness; only then shall we be able to comprehend the power we share with each other. So let's just talk it out, hug it out, and come to realize the understanding we already share with one another. In this moment will we discover how perfect each one of us actually is. Mind you, we are not flawless; however, perfection is attainable as the perfect balance between the good and bad qualities of one's self, whereby the good qualities vastly outweigh the bad.
In embracing ourselves and one another, the GOAL of life is found. Another way of saying this is that THEY are found. Simply put, you fall in love; you embrace every aspect of something other than yourself. This other person becomes your lifeblood; you become inseparable, clinging to each other. Your bonds tie deeply, intricately weaving heart and soul to the other, until that point is reached where you are no more. A new individual is formed from two; a union blossoms into the fragrant fruit of a family.
As enlightening as I have been, there is one thing I still have not discovered. How does one KNOW when they have found the other? That, my friends, shall never be answered. To know that answer is to take away the greatest mystery of life, the part that makes it an adventure. And one of the most frustrating things is that you can think you have found it, only to later discover that you could not have been more wrong. Breaking the heart is a frightening matter and can lead to anyone shutting themselves off from the world. But fear not, there is much hope; for that person who braves scale that wall and tear it down from the inside out, they are the one, the one that shall be with you for all time, until the end of days. Take their hand when they take you by the heart...love will surely follow.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
yay
chance brought us together;
and now a time zone separates us;
it feels like forever since we met
that random perfect night of which
you weren't supposed to be a part.
my heart was stolen by you
after just one day together
reading all the clues we shared;
it was like love at first sight,
even with all the doubts and questions we
joined our hearts together as
one body and soul
never to be apart
ever to be together
so long as you'll have me
and now a time zone separates us;
it feels like forever since we met
that random perfect night of which
you weren't supposed to be a part.
my heart was stolen by you
after just one day together
reading all the clues we shared;
it was like love at first sight,
even with all the doubts and questions we
joined our hearts together as
one body and soul
never to be apart
ever to be together
so long as you'll have me
unique
as time goes on
and passes by,
your life gains more meaning,
your innocence dwindles and fades,
cleansing and freeing your soul to
elude the grasp of monotony
and win your own identity,
differing you from every other woman
so that i would want you alone
so i would chance everything
in the purest hope
that i could have all your love;
and never will i stray
from the inescapable gravity
of your heart.
and passes by,
your life gains more meaning,
your innocence dwindles and fades,
cleansing and freeing your soul to
elude the grasp of monotony
and win your own identity,
differing you from every other woman
so that i would want you alone
so i would chance everything
in the purest hope
that i could have all your love;
and never will i stray
from the inescapable gravity
of your heart.
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